If you are not an improviser...

Fuck you. Er, I mean, this post will probably bore you.

Two shows tonight. Four String Samurai had our first show tonight and it felt pretty good. I felt frozen for the first part, but cool things started to happen about ten minutes in. I really like the organic transformations between scenes that we've been working on and when things settled down, I felt like we had a good show. We left each other hanging a few times and we played for over a half hour, but I have great hopes for this team and this new form.

Second show. Tub Cousins. I don't know. It was funny. I love my teamates, I just don't know where I fit in yet. I still feel like I'm the baby of the team and consequently am still waiting too long to get involved. I'm leaving my teamates hanging when they need my support the most because I feel like I'm not willing to make the "big mistake". It's bullshit and I know it. I have a feeling that time together will iron this thing out and I'll find my place. I think I'm just spinning my wheels too much about it right now.

My favorite moment tonight:

Me: I made you a present.
PT: Oh man, that's really cool.
Me: It's an homage.
(pause)
PT: It sure is.